Friday, February 4, 2011

Birth Story

In the middle of the night of his Birth Day, I felt a major ache while trying to turn in my sleep. Macam perut masuk angin sakit mencucuk-cucuk tak ingat. Then I wanted to pee as usual but had a major problem getting up cos I ached so bad.

After finally being done with the bathroom, I suddenly had the shivers. Menggigil satu badan kesejukan tetiba. Hubs siap kena bangun selimutkan berlapis-lapis semua.

An then, bila dah reda, I couldn't go back to sleep lah pulak. Sempat layan FB pukul 4 pagi nak amik mood tido balik. Nasib boleh lelap kejap lepas tuu.

Bila dah terang, hubs pun dah ke ofis, Cik Lyssa pun bangun. Tapi nasib Ummi dia ada boleh layan, leh sambung tido skit lagi.

Memang dari bangun pagi tuu dah rasa contraction. But I could still cope. Boleh gelak lagi and main2 dgn Lyssa. Still unsure betul ke tak real contractions nii. Tapi call jugak warning Encik Suami just in case anything.

Pen, paper and phone sentiasa di tgn so that I can time my contractions. It was pretty regular from morning. Tapi ada gak tuu rasa tak yakin contraction betul. Memula pagi around 15-20mins apart, then by midday turun to about 10mins apart. I just breathed thru them and buat biasa jer cos there was still no show, discharge or water breaking.

Sempat surf net gather info about when to go to the hospital. But I remember my neighbour telling me, bila dah 5 minit tuu, pegi!

Then dah petang skit I took a long hot shower. Lepas dah mandi tuu contraction terus jadi 5-6mins apart. Mula-mula ingat macam salah timing ker apa. Lepas a few readings baru sendiri percaya. Contractions pun makin intense. Then came the phone call to hubs "Yang balik skrg I dah tak leh tahan lagi. I think we should go to the hospital NOW!".

Haaa... Tapi dalam sakit2 nii still boleh pikir lagi, kalau false alrm buat penat jer pegi ;-) padahal sakit tak leh bangun tuu.

So petang tuu around 4 plus gerak gi hospital which is like 20mins away. Sampai hospital relax lagi (becos in my mind,mesti lambat lagi nii sbb air belum pecah and no show whatsoever) ingat baru bukak 1-2cm ke apa.

Doc on duty dtg check. Seluk skit jer baru, dush terus melimpah kuar air. Dah 5cm dah dia cakap. Haaa amik. Terkejut, nasib datang hospital gak.

So doc info since my previous was a c-sec, they will only allow me to try my best to progress naturally while monitoring me and baby closely. Baby stress or kalau I rasa pain kat stiches lama, they all akan terus operate. No inducing at all. Which of course turned out to be a good thing. The bad thing was, since they were also preparing for surgery, I wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything. Dah lah haus giler masa tuu, mmg rasa nak nangis mintak air.

So lepas check and register sumer terus masuk labor room (around 5.30pm dah kot masa tuu). Tak tunggu dah. Hubs couldn't stay with me throughout (which turned out to be for the best).

Dalam labor room hanya ada satu nurse teman and one doctor datang jenguk. Very minimal, but turned out I preferred it that way.

Contractions datang bertubi-tubi but I still had recovering time in between. Cuba elak tgk jam utk avoid stress dok pikir lama lagi nii tapi jam tergantung kat dinding tak boleh elak.

Sebab tak ada nurse datang setiap minit tanya "nak painkiller ke tak?" I could really concentrate on breathing thru the pain. Seriously, the less people in the room the better. Datang jer contraction I focused my mind on whatever I could.

Mula-mula tuu berzikir, lepas tuu baca surah kursi. Tapi lepas tuu bila mula hilang focus, I concentrated on a dot on the wall. Every time datang wave sakit menggelegak tuu I will focus my mind on something. Kalau dah tak boleh sgt ingat apa-apa, that dot on the wall worked for me. But paling effective was the mental image of my girl and my hubs.

I have to admit though, I did lose it at one point and dok pikir, tak tahan dah nii, operate jer lahhhh. Tapi nasib takde org kat dlm tuu nak manja2kan I so I had to find my inner strength and kuatkan semangat. I just thought of my daughter and had to marah diri sendiri kejap.

After about 4 hrs, came this rush of pain so bad that I gripped the nurses hand hard while my body felt the need to push. Ingat lagi masa nak cope I had the image of the gold band thread kat kain Kaabah tuu, imagine diri tawaf.

Lepas tuu jer, terus laa, katil naik, pasang stirrups, doctor standby ready untuk suruh push.

Masa nii mmg dah letih giler dah takde energy dah. And did I mention I only makan breakfast that day. Sempat makan kurma and minum air zam zam skit jer before kuar rumah, lepas tuu nothing.

I lost myself masa pushing. Letih sangat. But the doctor was very patient and gave good directions. She waited lama jugak for me to do my hardest pushing job so semua natural but I was soooo tired at the time so mmg kureng power skitt. So kena jugak episiotomy sebab baby dah lama kat birth canal.

Nak last2 tuu, datang a motherly but firm paed (tunggu nak chk baby) and she said "The next pain, you don't close your eyes. You hold my hand and look and me and pushhh hard to get your baby out and you'll be DONE!"

And that worked!

After seeing stars, the next thing I know the doctor was putting a bloody baby on my tummy. Gorgeous. Lega.

All I felt after that was relief. Relieved that the baby was out safely. Relieved that the contraction pain was over. Relieved that I can finally have a sip of water!

So I did get to hold him after they checked and cleaned him up. Held him to my chest for a bit before they took him away for observation again.

Lepas tunggu doc stitch me up and nurse did her nursely things, I was done.

Things that were unexpected:
- I got very HOT in that cold labor room during contractions. I was sweating buckets so the nurse really turned on the AC.
- I was shivering cold when it was all over.
- I still had recovering time between contractions even sampai masa nak push, I was actually expecting my contractions to overlap each other near the end.
- Less is more. The less 'cheerleaders' the better for me cos I could concentrate better.
- I liked that it was quiet and the nurse just stayed out of the way.
- I actually preferred being alone instead of having my husband beside me, I was stronger and less manja.
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4 comments:

pu3natul said...

so the birth story in that hypnobirthing blog tu berkesan la kan? i think if you didn't read it, mesti awak stress sebab Meor tak leh masuk kan?

awak lucky sebab dpt doc yg sabar tunggu..i hope my doc will be as patient as yours.

p/s: kita dok terfikir the dot you were talking about. i need look for my dot too nanti.hehe. but basically i understand the feeling of the dot thingy sebab dulu kalau kita kena migraine attacks, that's how i went thru the pain - divert the pain somewhere else and focus on one single thing.

Dd said...

tahniah utk dua perkara.

1. dapat baby boy
2. managed to go thru normal delivery.

hope everything will be smooth and easy too during confinement.

Nanak said...

hi,
salam kenal..
congrats on ur 2nd baby :)

aizuraawang said...

pu3... that blog really help... will hv to publish the link here. and seriously, having a patient doc really helps... now that i've been to 2 doctors and can compare, i have to say i won't go to my first gynae again to gove birth.

Dd... thank you!

Nanak... welcome! salam kenal and thank you!!